Experiencing spanking for the first time through the eyes of new models.
There is a fun aspect to my job that I have not really shared before. It is based on working with new models that have desires to be spanked. For the most part, our models are young and do not have much in the way of real life spanking experiences. Most of them report that they have had boyfriends that have smacked their asses a few times, but nothing that resembles a disciplinary spanking. Like most with spanking fantasies, they have desires to feel like they are in trouble and are actually being punished for something. Luckily, we are easily able to accommodate these desires.
The most interesting aspect of this is the fact that, like most of us, they have gone their whole life hiding the fact that they are into spanking. There are rarely situations as young women where they can discuss their interests in spanking with anyone. Then they walk through our doors and while somewhat intimidating, it can certainly be liberating. They find themselves in an environment in which spanking desires are discussed freely. For the first time in their lives, they are not alone, nor do they feel like perverts, with their spanking desires. They are surrounded by people that either spank or get spanked on a regular basis and have no problem talking about it. They see situations in which several people gather around a model after a shoot to look at the marks on her butt. They hear comments like “wow”, “cool”, and “look at that one”"as we all critique the marks left from the cane on someone’s bottom. They discover a completely free environment in which no one is judged for things that are often viewed as “kinky"or “perverted”.
Nothing is more fun than presenting someone into spanking, 100 different implements to choose from for their scene. They are like a kid in a candy store as they touch items that they previously have only fantasized about. They often make a pile of things that they “just have to try”. They love that they can ask questions about how each and every one will feel on their bottom. They love that they can bend over and take sample swats with any implement of their choosing. On many occasions, after completing three scenes with us, they find themselves back upstairs asking to be spanked off camera and without any additional pay, just because they are curious about how something will feel. You should see the look in their eyes as I describe a scene I have scripted that has them playing the role of a naughty school girl in serious trouble. It is often easy to tell when we have hit the nail on the head in regards to their ultimate spanking fantasy. In many cases we are providing them with a spanking that pays very well, but that in reality, they probably would have paid money to experience. I like to open people’s eyes and there is nothing greater than helping someone feel a sense of sexual liberation. I am glad that we have created an environment, which for some, is something that they have searched for their entire lives. I love it when someone realizes for the first time that there is nothing wrong with their desires. I love it when we do a very strict scene that leaves the girl in tears, and when I ask her afterwards how it was she replies, “amazing”. I love when I have pushed a girl to her limits and beyond and when it is all over she asks if we can do it on the bare next time.
It makes the whole process personally easier for me when someone is just really into it. We recently hired a new model that was clearly here to explore her unrealized spanking fantasies. After her first shoot, I asked her how she would feel about doing scenes in which she is spanked in front of a group of people, spanked with other girls, or forced to do naked corner time with others present. Her response was “oh my God, could we really do that”? I was just trying to test the waters, but she made it clear that I was pressing all the right buttons. There are aspects of my job that are difficult at best, but it all seems worth it when I am able to help someone with the exploration of their fantasies. It is more than worth it when they fully realize that if it is fun, consensual, and between adults, then there is nothing wrong with it. I think we help to create an environment that allows many women to explore their deepest and darkest fantasies without the guilt that is so often imposed by society. I am convinced that they will have a healthier and stronger sense of their own sexuality as a result.
Comments:I experienced my first adult spanking at the age of 40. I am now 45. It was such a liberating experience. So many of the emotions that you have described are so true. I truly felt like I had been set free from years of wondering if I was 'normal'. I enjoy reading your blog, keep up the great work.
The spanking experience is necessarily intimate and there is undeniably sexuality there. I just wish it was not kept so far under the surface in the films. I hope you would encourage the models to experience the sex rather than suppress it -- it would be wonderful to see furtive masturbation, more intimate physical inspections, or the physical evidence of arousal pointed out during the spanking scenes. And the painful shudders mixed with other sorts of shudders.
None of the women who've submitted to spankings for me have ever been able to keep from a rather obvious state of arousal at one stage or another during the process, even if I admit in all modesty that this may be purely physical, brought on by the flow of blood to that area of the body.
My two cents' worth,
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